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personal blog of holyexpletive; if you don't follow me there hi! my name is monica but most people call me moni. n______n 17yo and a senior at CCHS.

as you can see from the above picture I am extremely (un)photogenic. also my eyebrow is normal and my hair misbehaves in pictures a lot. just felt like I needed to clarify that.

this is a blog solely dedicated to rants and musings about my life. I post too much on my other one so I decided to make another one c:

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Posted: May 8, 13 With: 20,362 notes

well dang, I haven’t used this in a long time… it kind of sucks that I’m using this just to vent, but whatever.

idk, I feel like a lot has compounded at once and I’m really terrible at recognising when I’m stressed out so it’s usually not until I can’t sleep and I’ve gotten sick and I look like I’ve been crying always because my eyes are so damn puffy that I start thinking “hmm I think I might have too much going on at once”. :’)

I wouldn’t’ve minded if they were just commitments, like overcommitting to clubs or whatever, but it’s dumb drama and that’s what’s making me feel ridiculous over this whole thing. stressed out? over drama? over people that I should be able to overlook just because I don’t see them on an every day basis? ………………..yeah, how dumb does that sound.

iunno, I just feel so stressed out and angry about those dumb people but the thing is that I’ve gotten so comfortable with them—and they’re a good crowd really—that it kind of sucks having to find an alternative. but I think I’m doing the good thing, about cutting ties with people who stress you out. well, I’m not cut cutting them because I’ve never been good at ending friendships, but I think it’d be good to find a different group of people who I’m not so tied down with at the moment.

that being said I’ve been neglecting a lot of friendships I really shouldn’t have been just for those dumb drama-causing friends. I think I’ll work on those because they’re the ones that matter—I mean, they actually have an impact on the here and now, so I’m going to try to get back on track. I think I’m done with ignoring texts; God knows I’ve ignored enough to last me a lifetime h-haha……

anywho, I’m just rambling at this point. hghghhg I need to get working on my portfolio but more likely than not I’ll be back on here to bitch and moan about something HAHA. if anyone actually reads this, I hope you’ve had a good day so far <3

Posted: May 8, 13

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Posted: Mar 10, 12 With: 419 notes

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Posted: Mar 10, 12 With: 8,829 notes

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Sorry

staypozitive:

For constantly wanting to talk to you.

For getting sad, when you take long to reply.

For saying things that might piss you off.

For coming off as annoying.

If you dont want to talk to me as much as I wanna talk to you.

If I think about you too much and too often.

If I tell you about my pointless drama when you dont really care.

If I come off as being clingy..

I just wanted to say, I miss you.